It's so easy to be your own worst critic, or harsh to yourself but we wouldn't speak to others that way, so it's silly we do it, so often to ourselves. Yesterday, I had a day like that. A day where everything I have done or accomplished seemed to fall short and left me wanting. A day where I compared myself to others and again fell short and was left feeling jealous. A lack of belief or direction. Thank God it's another day now. And sometimes, that it all it is. A bad day. A day that you can't muster up inspiration for jobs or writing and sometimes no matter how hard you try and get your head around what you should be doing, it can be helpful and kind to yourself to just give in. Allow yourself that 'crappy' day.
So today is a new day and I've asked the police that watch over my shoulder to step back a bit. You know the ones, the ones that say you should be doing something else, when you want to be creative or the ones that say don't write that, it's rubbish to prevent you writing anything. Today I shall write, be it fun, average or the next best thing. I shall laugh because life shouldn't be so stressful everyday. It's O.K to have some light relief, especially as it's normally at those times, when you have the best ideas or inspiration. Today, I will except that what I write and do, may be different but not necessarily wrong or less valuable.
Today, I shall not pen myself in but allow my ability and writing to cross over the line and be true to myself and perhaps find something new. I will not forget yesterday, as it's those days that make the better days, so much more rewarding but I dare say, it won't be long before another pops up it's head. And if it does, I shall probably spend the first hours fighting it and chastising myself until I remember...it's O.K to have a bad day.
Once today is laid to bed and I have done what I have need to do and put some firm ticks next to my checklist of jobs done or words written, I shall write another for tomorrow and that is to me where the excitement and fun really happens. We do not know what tomorrow will bring, opportunities, laughs or dreams that come true. But I am happy to settle for a day where the work I do makes me feel fulfilled, I am in control of my day and being the best I can be....and today, as I write, I feel I'm on the right track.
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